For along time, there were some things that I couldn't enjoy growing up, because my heart would hurt very much. I can't go on roller coasters that have a big steep downfall, or some spinny rides either, even if there is no steep. But if I do go on a roller coaster, I feel a tightening in my chest near my heart, it pumps harder and faster, my body will shake if the steep is really big.
I've tried to explain this feeling to a lot of ppl, and the only thing that I can say, is if you know what it feels like to fall, you feel something in your chest, or your belly, or both. That's what I feel, but it's really painful for me.
I went to Great Adventure this past Wednesday, and we went on a boat ride. It's the really big boat that swings back and forth. We sat in the middle because my bf knows of the pain that I feel. I didn't want to go on, I knew that my heart was going to hurt cause I went on a ride like that before and it was awful. So anyway, as the boat goes up higher and comes down, I started shaking a lot, and it felt like my heart just wanted to stop.
When I see roller coasters that I want to go on, I fear that maybe my heart will stop and I'll die. Although I must say, I am not afraid of roller coasters or anything with a big steep, I actually want to go on them, but because of the pain that I get, I can't, and it sucks.
After I got off the boat ride, I wanted to cry because that's much I hurt, it felt like a panic attack was coming on in the midst of the pain that I feel. But when I have a panic attack, of course my heart doesn't hurt at all.
I know I need to see a Dr. but i don't want to find out that I may have a bad heart, but if it's normal, and everyone feels that way, I can't imagine what fun it is to get on a ride, and always have that pain, I can't enjoy a ride like that at all. Maybe subconsciously I am afraid of those kind of rides, but I think as though I'm not, maybe I need to keep going on those rides to get used to it or something, idk. it would be nice if there was a medication that prevented my heart/chest from hurting when I go on those rides.
But until then, I just avoid them and watch other ppl enjoy them -_-