Faint of heart.

By avos Latest Reply 2011-07-28 23:48:40 -0500
Started 2011-07-13 01:02:56 -0500

Hello all. I am new to the community as well as to heart failure. After losing my job in October of last year I went into a downward spiral. I had planned on killing myself in my 25th birthday which was coming up soon. I planned it all out and started leaving daily countdown type journal entries. When it came time I just could go through with it. I moved in with my mom and continued on the path of depression. My diet was terrible and I wasn't leaving the house. I am obese and I was correcting that up until I lost my job. Things were going great. I was on a healthy diet and exercising everyday. Cut to mid January and I had an Echo that showed an EF of 10%. I received the news and was hospitalized. They removed 4 liters of fluid from my lungs and I still retained almost 100 pounds of water in my stomach tissue. They did an ultrasound and found they couldn't drain it. It got so bad it was leaking through my pores in my stomach. I started seeing a cardiologist as well as the Heart Failure Clinic at IMC in Murray, Utah. I ended up being hospitalized again so they could pump me full of antibiotics and Torsemide. The Lasix didn't do it for me. It was the second hospitalization where I made the most progress. I lost over 100 pounds in a little over a week with the new meds and felt great. Cut to today (I have many more stories to tell) I am now on 50 MG of Carvedilol, 100 MG of Torsemide, 50 MG of Spironolactone, 20 MG of Lisinopril, and 81 MG of Aspirin. Add to the heart meds my meds for bipolar II, Wellbutrin and Prozac, I am on a buffet of prescriptions and I am not even 26. I hope find support and inspiration here as well as hopefully provide some.


13 replies

avos 2011-07-28 17:00:50 -0500 Report

Kidney function is a little too high. Skipping evening doses and appointment in the morning to see if they return to normal. Changes to meds probably only action.

HeartHawk 2011-07-28 23:43:59 -0500 Report


You said your kidney test was "a little too high." Could you let us know which test it was and the test result?


avos 2011-07-28 23:48:40 -0500 Report

It was the kreatnin level. It was at 2.2 So they had me skip Torsemide, Lisinopril, and Coreg for the night. I will report back after my 8 am appointment if it went down and what the meds change to. Thanks for all the concern everyone :)

shoulders 2011-07-27 18:09:37 -0500 Report

Hello Avis, Glad to have you here at the HC site. You will find answers to questions and lots of friends, and people that have been down this same path as you have gone down. Just remember now you have friends to lean on instead of thinking of suicide. That won't solve any of your problems, just cause more. Think about the loved ones that you would have left alone. So,please fell free to send me a message when ever you need to talk. Your New Friend, Cynthia

tankmom 2011-07-16 14:06:41 -0500 Report

Wow, I hope I can give you some encouragement and put a smile on your face. You have really been through the ringer and I want you to look at that ringer as a carousel with music and happy faces. Close your eyes anf try to visualize it. Give your troubles to God asking Him to carry you through and you will be surprised how while it may not seem like it, He does ease the burden if you have the Faith. You are the age range of my daughters and they question their faith, but if the seed is planted it will grow. While, yes I have heart disease, what I have been through with some of my family members and the amount of activities I was involved with, I would not have been here had God not been with me. Stress is one of the worst things for the heart but with practice, guidance, eliimination of some stressful things, I have learned how to deal with it. I surely wish you the best, Avos, and also know that you are in a good place here in this community. Now hug yourself and smile:)

avos 2011-07-13 20:09:27 -0500 Report

Thanks for the welcome guys. I did a search for Heart Failure on the iPhone app store and found this. Since then I registered and downloaded the apps for depression, bipolar, and anxiety. In about a month I have another Echo to see if I am above 35% EF or if surgery will be required. I used to find comfort in this diagnosis as I was making significant progress. The closer to the appointment I get more scared. Damn. :-)

HeartHawk 2011-07-18 23:33:46 -0500 Report


LOL, it is like waiting to have a cavity drilled only 100 times worse! So many of us have walked a mile in those shoes. Hang in there and report back. You are a trailblazer for many here facing similar situations! I am certain you will come out of it stronger and happier for the experience. It will make you an expert for the rest of us! Please share that experience and knowledge!


KimberAnne1222 2011-07-18 08:12:55 -0500 Report

I understand that fear believe me and its normal, I mean really this is ur life ur dealing with here, but I'm not gonna be the 1 to say don't be scared cuz being there I know that is impossible, but there r ways to get through that fear and relax a little be4 the test. Whats ur favorite hobby or activity u like to do (mine is movies, or reading or writing) Find that thing that makes u happy and do it. Well, providing its not jumping out of a plane or something similar lol. What it does is take ur mind off of whats coming up and before u know it the test will be over. My fear isn't actually the test, but the results afterward. My ef last time checked was at 24% but if I dwell on that I won't get better and surely will have surgery. So, find ur "happy place" and go from there, please keep us posted on ur progress :)

HeartHawk 2011-07-13 09:45:27 -0500 Report


Glad you are with us! Although I am older I have had my share of depression (bipolar actually so thankfully more highs than lows).

If you are on Wellbutrin and Prozac it sounds like you have sought and found professional help needed. Those "plans" you made a serious symptom. Glad you addressed them. People are so weird about behavioral conditions. They will seek dozens of docs for heart disease but seemed afraid or ashamed to fix the the other organ that controls everything - your brain! Heck, the brain is just that - another organ that can be treated and made healthy. Make certain to check out our Depression and Bi-Polar communities as well.

Thanks for sharing your story and please continue to update us. Stop in often! Sometimes just knowing you are not alone provides strength for everyone in a similar situation. Stories such as yours can be inspirational and just might be the "ice-breaker" needed to get other people talking. Not everyone is as brave as you are - at first! But with a little leadership such as yours - who knows!


Te Ja
Te Ja 2011-07-13 09:45:04 -0500 Report

I am glad that you have joined HC. You well find lots of great information, tons of support, and friends that truly care how you are feeling. I am so happy to here you are on the right road to a happier and healthier life. I pretty much visit this site everyday so if you need and friend or just want to talk or vent give me a shout.
Take care Te Ja.